Strength

I would like to say I'm proud of myself for being strong; but the truth is I'm weak. If I was strong I would leave you behind and never look back. But I can't do that. I want you too much. I don't know what the future will hold, but I look forward to it because it's a time other than the present. Nothing has changed, but my heart feels heavy with jealousy. I've made peace with it, or at least I thought I had...