Rejection.

Now I think I know why when a guy cheats, the girls go after each other and not the guy. While sometimes it is because they are just stupid and furious, I don't think that's the reason all of the time. I think it's just easier for them to believe that some stupid bitch came along and seduced their man rather than face the idea of rejection. The idea that maybe, they just aren't good enough, aren't the kind of person their man wants. Some take that rejection hard.

Although I haven't been cheated on, perhaps this is something I too need to face.

Dancing

Went out dancing tonight. I had sooo much fun. It was a fundraiser dance at the Arthur Murray Studio and a bunch of my other dance friends were there. Had squeeze four people into a three person truck on the way home though >.> that was interesting...

I can't wait for Sunday, it's my birthday! I'm finally going to be legal! >.<

Anyways, I'm tired, and as usual, words can never express my excitement or the fun I have when I go out dancing.

Cloud Nine

I was just watching a Dairy Queen commercial, and something hit me. I think I know where the expression "on cloud nine" comes from. It was the new commercial about the midnight truffle blizzard and how it'll put you on cloud nine and make you lose your breath... Well, maybe if something is so good it'll make you be on cloud nine and lose your breath, there's a connection, right? So I thought, what else makes you lose your breath? And it hit me. Duhh, if you travel too high in the sky you can't breathe. So if something makes you lose your breath, that's why it puts you on cloud nine. xD

Vacation Week (part two)

After every high comes the crashing fall. I had an awesome week, especially the past couple of days. But then, I found out that the person I love, and claims to love me back is engaged. For real. To another girl. I know it won't last long, I mean they've only been dating a week, and she's a high school sophomore. But it hurts, regardless. It hurts bad. I know that I need to tell him to choose, me or her. It can't be both, I just couldn't survive that. I deserve better, I deserve respect. You don't treat the people you love with that kind of disregard. I know that I'll always love him, I always have, even if I didn't always realize it. I'll just have to tuck that love away, again, and hope that the future will yield a better result.

The truth doesn't help with the sting.

Tuesday

Had a ton of dance today. Went to ballroom from 2-4 and then west coast from 7-12. It was pretty sweet. I had a birthday dance and yummy cake and yeahhh. All in all, an amazing night. Good people, great dancing, tons of fun.

Vacation Week

Well, I know I haven't written in a while, but I've been busy.

On Saturday, I spent 10 hours working on the homework I got over vacation. The sad part? I'm only half-way done. I don't understand why teachers feel it's necessary to dominate our vacations. It's not fair. They're supposed to be a break from school, not even more work.

On Sunday, I went to visit Marist College, and I absolutely love it. Not only is the campus completely gorgeous, but it has the academic environment that I want. I found out that I was one of 950 accepted freshman, selected out of over 10,000 applicants. There is just no way to explain how completely excited I am to go there. The dorms are great, with townhouses for upperclassmen, and I can walk from one side of campus to the other in 15 minutes no problem. The technology there is wonderful, and I love the study abroad program. If all goes well, I'll study abroad three times: for 2 weeks over my freshman year spring break in Hawaii, a semester in Argentina my sophmore year, and a language immersion semester in Spain my junior year. And, the best part? It's all normal tuition. It won't cost me a thing extra! I wish I had brought my camera, because practically every place on campus was just picture perfect. >.< I really can't wait to spend four years of my life there!

Today, I had an appointment at the Connecticut Student Loan Foundation (CSLF). Hopefully now, my mom can take care of all the financial stuff. After college, I'm going to be nearly 130,000 in debt. Un-freakin-believable. After that, we went shopping at Uptown Consignment. I got a pair of brown leather flip-flops, which not only look nice, but are wicked comfy. I also got two new pairs of jeans, (size 4) and a brown, floral skirt, (size 0). Tell me, how can I be a size four and a size zero at the same time? O.o I really wish clothing manufacturers would keep there sizes more standard. It would make things so much easier...