*Sigh*

*sigh*
Why do I always have to like the taken ones?

You've finally admitted what I knew from the start, but I try to tell myself that it doesn't matter. It changes nothing.

EDIT 4-5-09: Why do I have to be such an idiot sometimes? I want you to be happy and you're happy with her. But I'm falling for you anyways.

My Love for You

Your eyes, gray as the mist above the sea,
Bore into my heart and soul.
Your hair, black as the starless night,
Entombed me in your sanctuary.

As I lie here next to you,
I can hear your heart beat:
Thump-thump, thump-thump.
Feel your soft breath on my ear,
The coolness of your body next to mine.
Your voice whispers to me,
Like a seducer in my dreams.
Entwined together, while not forever,
Lit me up like a star in the sky.

My love for you goes as deep as the sea
I'll always believe in you even as you waver.
Let the light of your heart shine through,
To that place in my dreams;
I'm waiting for you.

the Storm in my Heart

The silence of the night deepens,
Lying here, waiting for you.
The full moon shines silvery-gray,
Dulled through the cover of the clouds.
Each second the sky grows darker,
Until complete and utter darkness
Descends upon my heart.
Lightning flashes, entwined and forked in the sky,
Like the lovers we once were.
Thunder grumbles low in the background,
As if the sky itself was wronged.
Then the rain plummets in a growing torrent,
Crying for what once was,
And will never be again.

You.

I can't help but smile every time I think of you. I've enjoyed our talks greatly, but it bothers me how attached we have become. I don't want to be the ruin of another relationship. I've already ruined enough. May your mind wander no more. =)

I don't want to be the girl on the side.

Edit: I can't help it, I'm jealous. Jealous of her and that I can't be yours for real. Mad for letting myself believe in your words, even if they are true. You treat me as if I was the most wonderful person in the world and nothing could make you happier. I hope it won't all be for nothing.

No sleep ahead...

Stupid, stupid me.
I cry for what I've lost, because I can't see what I'll find.

I'm sorry for what I've done. I let myself stray for no good reason and I may have lost my love because of it. I know not what would have happened if I had restrained myself. Perhaps things would have ended up the same way, I don't know. I'm torn in different directions and I can't seem to get my bearings. I feel like in the end, my choice will be for the better, but the wait is what's killing me the most. I don't want to regret anything in the end.