You.

I can't help but smile every time I think of you. I've enjoyed our talks greatly, but it bothers me how attached we have become. I don't want to be the ruin of another relationship. I've already ruined enough. May your mind wander no more. =)

I don't want to be the girl on the side.

Edit: I can't help it, I'm jealous. Jealous of her and that I can't be yours for real. Mad for letting myself believe in your words, even if they are true. You treat me as if I was the most wonderful person in the world and nothing could make you happier. I hope it won't all be for nothing.